Better late than 500

Science fiction tries to sell us the concept of a fixed point in time. Something that you cannot change. Killing Hitler, saving JFK and quite possibly the 2016 election. Sometimes things are just meant to happen. God's honest truth I can take anything and make it into my own personal fixed point and I bet you could too so lets get the ball rolling. Okay, that was a bit confrontational and a bit awkward sorry about that. 

So I'm 38 years old technically unemployed and by technically I mean I'm part of the gig economy. I do my own thing, have my own enterprises some more lucrative than others all are as ridiculous and clicheic as you can imagine. Recently, I had a medical incident that made me rethink things. Especially, what I leave behind the day I take my last breath. A few of my friends have died, some have taken their own lives, and for the most part have left very little behind that I could read in their own voice.  So, this will be that.  A thing that my spouse, friends and family members can read and remember how fucking obnoxious I was for a self-proclaimed introvert. No, I'm not about to bum rush Saint Peter's gates but I want to say that I love you all. Each for an infinite amount of different reasons and at the same time equally down to the molecular level. It's a tie my people. Don't flip a coin,  you know i already took all of your coins and traded them for hard cash.

You might ask why not use facebook? well I killed that. Actually, I killed all social media just before midnight on election day about, wait for it.... 496 days ago. Bury the lede in the 3rd paragraph pulitzer here i go. 

Killed Twitter too. Even if i had it, it kind of loses context #Context. 

Today was a fucked up day. The broker and their clearance house fucked me over and if i was a character in a Martin Scorsese movie things would be more interesting and a bit less depressing. 

No,  I'm not the Wolf of Wall Street more like the Raccoon of Tampa Bay.  

So,  there you go a start.

Yours Truly,

Blue Rage

3.19.2018